Forever doomed to be named after a doll.
Scorpio/Gemini Rising/Moon in Taurus
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It’s summer, and everyone seems to be in love. I despise them for it. I can’t seem to shake the bitterness that has taken over my whole heart. The love I had, was ripped away, and what is left is a huge cavity in my chest. I can’t seem to sew it up tight enough that it won’t rip back open. I just want it to heal. I want it to mend. And one day it will, but i don’t think i will ever be able to love as much and as freely as I did then.
blah :( i can feel my heart breaking into a million pieces, and i’m not sure if i’m strong enough to pick them all up…
Tonight’s conversation of my selfishness for trying to get you back and my foolishness for spilling my heart out once more has led me to realize that to hold onto you i must give you up and let you find things i couldn’t give you. I need to let you go so that we can stay friends, because you’re the only friend i’ve ever really wanted.
Today is Day One of getting over the most amazing person i’ve ever met, wish me luck.
to everyone who was sweet enough to say something:
I’m trying, i really am. It’s just not working. You can’t force someone to really love you.
